Tuesday, January 25, 2005


One more confirmation

اليوم نراك/نراكِ بشكل آخر.
لستَ الآن مجرّد نتوء في الرحم.
شكلك يتّخذ شكل الجنين.
تماماً مثل الكتاب، لكنّك بلا شكل لا تشابه آحداً على الإطلاق.

Today we see you much more clearer.
The ultrasound shows you more than a little protrusion in the uterus.
You look like these embryos in the book...
But no: you're not like anyone else.
We know that

Thursday, January 20, 2005


ظوظو ظاظا...
You.. He or She

أنت من الآن ظوظو/ظاظا
لا يجب أن نتحدّث عنكَ فقط في المذكّر
سنتحدّث عنكِ شهراً كبنت وشهراً كولد
حتّى نعرف من تكون

Saturday, January 08, 2005


First Glimpse
أوّل نظرة

ٌToday we had our first glimpse on you.
I was so concerned: will we see anything? Was it a false pregnancy? Are you still alive?
I was also concerned that the stupid ultrasound will bother you or affect your genes or cells.

But, finally, we did see you.
We knew you're almost two-weeks-old. How big can you be?
Yes.. we knew you would be that small, but it's never like seeing it.
Oh God!
I know that pregnancy is a very trivial thing; almost everybody has it. But, for us, it's the first time and--so far--it seems so amazing.
You're that small and you can grow and become a person.. a human.

اليوم ألقينا النظرة الأولى عليك.
كانت تجول بذهني وقلبي مخاوف كثيرة. متقبِّلٌ أنا فكرة أن نكون قد فقداك، أو ألاّ نكون قد أعطيناك من الأساس. لكنّني أحبّ أن أعرف الآن.
أنا قلق أيضاً من هذه الموجات فوق الصوتيّة اللعينة. هل ستصيبك بأيّ مكروه يؤثر في خلاياك أو چيناتك في هذه المرحلة الحرجة؟

لكن.. أخيراً
كنّا نعرف أنّك-أنت ذي الأسبوعين-ستكون صغيراً. لكنّنا لم نتصوّر شكل الصغر وصورته.
يا الله! أنا عارف أنّ الحمل شيء عادي جدّاً يحدث تقريباً لكلّ إنسان. لكن، بالنسبة لنا هي المرّة الأولى، وهي-حتّى الآن-مذهلة.
ما أصغرك، ومع ذلك، ستنمو إلى قامة شخص..

Tuesday, January 04, 2005


Will we ever meet you?

Today, your mother had a minor bleeding.
Being the inexperienced parents we are, we were so scared. We didn't tell each other our greatest fear: what if it was a stillbirth?

Will you be OK and safe? What if you--God forbid--never saw the light of this world. Was it a dream in vein? An "unfinished" project, an "unachieved" task?

You would already have touched our hearts. You would already have prepared us for more love and more humbleness regarding the mystery of this life. You would already have taught us a lesson about the value of an unborn child, and the meaning of other people's sufferings and struggles.

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